so here’s the thing..
he makes me mad almost all the time
he makes my blood boil to the highest level
he makes me wanna shout at him always
he calls me baboi (when in fact i’m soo not)
we keep on fighting (almost all the time we meet)
and yet i feel complete around him…
i feel a bit secure and a bit cared…
and i just can’t stand not seeing him, not being with him…
i just wanna be close to him all the time
i wanna hear his annoying but funny voice
i miss the way he would tease me and make me mad
i miss the way he makesme laugh again and again…
i don’t know if it’s allowed but it’s a risk i’m willing to make…
i can’t stop thinking bout him…
his becoming a drug to me…
i just want him..all of him!!!
but most specially…
i’m in love with him…
no,
i love trumphet boy!
I LOVE HIM!!!
Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can’t see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don’t utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it’s you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I’ll stop thinking
And maybe things won’t end up sad.
you’ve got me confused what are we really???
why is it when you love you give everything but receive too little.
you don’t mind getting hurt.you smile but inside you crying…
why do we have to lie!why do you have to fake it!
if real love is all about sacrificing one’s happiness
for the other without understanding why, then maybe,
perhaps love is PAIN…
pain that one endures just for the sake of loving!
i love him but he doesn’t love me; let’s face reality;
we can’t change the fact that my heart belongs to him
but his heart belongs to someone else.
oh! the pain, i think i can no longer endure this pain inside.
it makes me wanna die inside. as i once said "Death is the only
solution to end one’s suffering!" and if only death can take away
the pain then let me die at once to end my bleeding heart.
your scourging a heart so full…
full of devotion and love for you…
but… now full of sadness, loneliness, pain
and so much hatred that it could STOP BEATING!!!
if i could have just one wish,
i would wish to wake up everyday.
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine…
knowing that i could never find that feeling
with anyone other than YOU…
ps: this is for someone special i hold deep in my heart… mwaaahugs!
